Growing up as 1 of 5 siblings,  I recognized early on  I felt things differently and deeper. I knew things but was not allowed to express them unless it was found it  in a book and I could back it up. Being told early on I couldn’t do what I felt like doing, I learned to become a chameleon. When I was alone or with trusted like minded people, I could be my true colors.

When I was with others who judged or held me accountable through conformity  I changed colors to look like I fit it.  This created a huge struggle and sense of loneliness for me but at the same time taught me skills I might not have learned otherwise, like how to be aware, and how to accept that I had a foot in two worlds. 

I always got confirmation through informational wisdom that would flow through me. I knew at a very young age nothing biblical made any sense but I could never prove it, I was outnumbered and it was blasphemy if I  dared  to question. I could feel  deep insecurities even  in the strongest appearing people, I could feel sincere love, sincere lies.  I could feel the nervous systems of others, and felt them faking being ok.  I felt so much I learned to harden it for a lot of years, until I realized it is my way of processing information here on earth.

I am a Kinesthetic – learner; it took me 37 years to learn this powerful sensory.  Learning the power of being an empath helped me discover how to skill this into a super power tool.  It helped me to understand my past  struggles  in a broader way. It helped propel me  forward onto a path that resonated with the rhythm of my soul and the mission of my soul versus the mission of my pre-programmed mind.